NTC, 21st Birthday Celebration and Threats..

I just ate some really good food that I cooked myself, but can't help to feel the illest stomach pains. They say you shouldn't eat when you're upset, but unfortunately I think that was the case right now.

NTC was the worst training event I've ever done. People were neck at neck with eachother, and I happen to get in involved in a mess. Not that I care anymore about what happened in NTC, but I'm not one to let people get to me. These dudes really pissed me off out there, and I wouldn't care if we ever spoke again. The worst thing anyone can ever do to me is try to make look stupid and LIE TO MY FACE. My blood boils just thinking about it. I've had plenty of friends in the past whom I don't speak to anymore for that reason. I feel that lying is the biggest betrayal in MY book. Lie to me, and you turn on a switch in which only I can turn off. It gets really nasty and I rarely get like that but its just something about Liars that I cannot tolerate. It drives me nuts. I'm a resiliant individual and I will not allow anything to bother me.

As for my 21st birthday, I am so glad that I have other friends out here who look out for my best interest. They took me out and showed me a good time. On Friday I got hammered, yada yada yada, and on Saturday I hung out with my right hand man, Jose. Dinner, a bar, and a club, the night ended with a few drinks in my system and outrageous house in Seattle. It was one of the most chilled out birthdays I've ever had. Not an ounce of drama during any night and I felt so carefree. Thank you God!

So whats up with these people calling up my aunt and uncle in El Salvador harrassing them saying they are going to kill them if they don't give them money? My mother has decided to go out there and support my cousin in hopes of them coming back to the U.S. I just wish my mother the best out there and I will pray for all of their well-being. I spoke to her for about an hour on the phone right now and shes worried about going there. I told her not to worry and as much as I don't agree with her decision in going, I am there to support her and let her know that everything is going to be alright. I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE, i just dont like it when my family goes through these rough times.

Regardless of how much things are iffy in my life at the moment, I'm ready for anything and I know that God is looking out for all of us. Thank you God once again, I know you're listening, even if nobody else out there is.

Randy J.H.