BLEH

So i took a test. my astronomy test. and i passed, barely.

SO idk wtf is wrong with me, im feeling BLEH!

i took another test, the last one came out negative, im sure the next will be too, but i just want to make sure. I hope tomorrow i get the results, but i dont think i want to try so soon. Im all over the place lately, i dont get myself. I used to have set routine, and I was on top of things. I was on top of it all, and I miss that. I dont know where the fuck I went wrong. Right now im watching "Just My Luck" and its hilarious. Lindsay Lohan is a great actress. well, comedian.

I think i should take another astronomy test. But it might be too late. LISTEN, im going NUTS! I just dont feel right because I dont know exactly where I stand with that stupid HIV test. GOD, this has the most biggest scare of my life lately. I dont want to be paranoid about it anymore but i just cant help it! Smoking is so fucking gross now, and I honestly dont seem to fit that into my routine like i used to. I cant believe i used to smoke and drink energy drinks to get myself through the beginning of the year. I have so much to say about this year, It would take me a while to write all my thoughts down. I have my future planned out already, that is the only thing that makes me happy at the very moment, and the fact that im going back to NJ and partying in Miami pretty soon.

My emotions are scattered all over the place. Its true, I just want to feel normal again. Please God, I need you now more than ever. Please help me from going insane...