Hector

I'm confused right now amongst all of these other emotions that I have at the moment...You were so young. alive. sweet. amazing.

I can't believe you're gone. I'm not going to hold back what I feel anymore...I shouldn't have done that with you. I wish I would have never had to leave. This kills me. I had an amazing time with you when I was in Jersey during the holidays. I wish I could hold you again, I want to lay next you again...I wish I could kiss you again. We just hit it off so well when we met...I wish I could go back in time, during our last dinner...it was cute how you got all dressed up as if it was our first date. You're probably hating me right now for putting this out there, but I don't really care what people have to say. I know what I felt for you was real, I just know that the timing wasn't right. Now that you're gone, I think I've learned that the timing for anything will never be right. We just need to say how we feel at the moment. I know you came into my life for a reason. I think you hit it right on the dot when you told me that I think too much. I miss how straightforward you were... your text messages...From going to watch Tron in the crazy Jersey blizzard to watching Cars at my sister's place, it's these moments that I will never forget with you. Remember when I left, you said you aren't good with goodbyes so you said you'll see me later...Who would have thought it really meant you were really saying goodbye to me...Rest in peace.